Rejection stinks! How is it that one tiny word could turn me into a blubbering mess and make me doubt my calling? Well, I’ll tell you how. I submitted my book to Bookbub last week with great expectations. For those of you who don’t know what that is, Bookbub is a free daily email service that lists a variety of e-books for sale. It has the potential to reach millions of readers nationwide.
Now, while I love and appreciate every reader of “Katie’s Glimpse”, most of them are local people, or people who know me, and I felt this was my chance to reach a broader audience.
Well, I got an email reply today from Bookbub telling me that they were sorry to inform me but my book was not chosen to be listed at this time. Man, that stings a little. Well, a lot actually.
God has opened so many doors for me throughout this whole process, but this one slammed shut in my face with a loud thud. Okay, Lord. I hear ya, no Bookbub. But where does this leave me now? I’m trying to not let it get me down, but it’s tough. Then I remembered a text message I received this morning from a very sweet lady I’ve recently come to know. While I usually don’t pay much attention to chain emails or texts, this one’s timing couldn’t have been more perfect. This is what it said.
Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for YOU, declares the LORD.
Dear Woman of God, Be still for a while and praise God for His favor, His grace and His awesomeness. God is able to do the impossible and is always near. He loves us unconditionally. Together, let’s get 1000 ladies to praise Him with one voice in this next hour. Please forward this to every woman you want God to bless. Let’s all say this prayer during this hour: Dear God, This is my friend whom I love and this is my prayer for her. Help her live her life to the fullest. Please promote her and cause her to excel above her expectations. Help her to shine in the darkest places where it is hard to love. Protect her at all times, lift her up when she needs You the most, and let her know when she walks with You, she will always be safe. Amen!
How perfect. At the time I’m dealing with the pain of rejection and doubting my future as a writer, God uses this text to show me that He’s still here and has a plan for me that will be more than I could ever imagine.
But that’s not the only reassurance I received today. Below is a daily email devotional that I subscribe to. I skipped it this morning and only read it after I received my rejection email from Bookbub.
Seeing The Big Picture
by Os Hillman
…”Everything is against me!” – Genesis 42:36
Eventually, Benjamin along with Jacob’s other sons learned that their brother Joseph was second in command in Egypt. Joseph revealed his identity, and Jacob was reunited with his son whom he had not seen for more than 13 years. He had thought Joseph to be dead.
So often we believe our dreams are dead. There seems to be nothing left in our world to live for. Everything appears to be against us. During these times, God is doing His deepest behind-the-scenes work. During these times, God is performing a deeper work in each of us — a work that cannot be seen.
When clients began leaving my ad agency and it dried up for no apparent reason, it appeared “everything was against me.” I could not see that God was orchestrating a whole new calling on my life. At the moment, it seemed like the worst thing in the world. It seemed that I had been a failure. But God said, “No.” All the years before had been preparation for what God’s ultimate calling would be. One of God’s methods for directing His children’s steps is through drying up resources: a job loss, a career change, or a disaster. In these times we are willing to listen more intently, and to seek God in ways we would not normally do. C.S. Lewis once wrote, “God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains; it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world.”
Wow, I sure needed to hear that today. So what do I do now? I dry the tears from my face, and lift my eyes to the Lord. I lay my burden down at His feet and know that He has something even better than Bookbub in store for me. I just have to wait on His perfect timing.
Today I pray that if you too are feeling the sting of rejection, that you lay that burden down at the Master’s feet and remember that while He promised us an abundant life, He didn’t say it would come without pain.
I’ll leave you with a verse that came to me as I wrote this blog.
“And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.” 1 Peter 5:10.
Many blessings to you,