Well, this is it. My book is done, and in a few days it will be out there for the whole world to see. I’m feeling so many emotions at the same time that my head is spinning. I want to laugh, I want to cry, and part of me wants to throw up. This book has been my baby for the last six months. I have poured my heart and soul into it. I have cried buckets of tears and laughed joyously, sometimes in the same hour. God gave me a dream and helped me turn that into an amazing story and through it, I’m finally free from the heavy burden I’ve been carrying on my shoulders all these years. The mask that I’ve worn to cover all my pain and regrets is now gone, and my face is shining brightly. I feel like a new person, a person fulfilled and worthy.
God has held my hand throughout the whole journey. When I was afraid or doubt began to creep in, I lifted my eyes to my Heavenly Father and feeling secure in His love, kept on going. I’ve had my share of doubts and a lot of what ifs along the way. What if nobody likes my book? What if it’s not perfect? What if I’m laughed at and ridiculed for following my calling to be a writer? What if…What if…What if…I could go on forever, but you know what God keeps telling me? So what!! So what if nobody likes the book or there are comma errors. So what if someone says harsh words or doubts my talent. I’m doing what He led me to do, and He has me in His arms. He has opened so many doors for me. When I left my full-time job and began to worry about the decision, He gave me another job. One that allows me to be flexible in my hours and gives me the time and income to follow my dream to write. When I doubted my abilities, He gave me a Bible verse or song that kept me going. When I felt alone in my journey, He had one of my friends call or text, just to ask how I was doing. He’s been there at every turn, filling me with His peace and love.
So now as I’m standing on the edge of the great unknown, I will lift my eyes to the heavens and jump, secure in the knowledge that my Father will catch me no matter what, just like He always has.
Happy Thanksgiving and many blessings to you,